Just your average common-garden 40-something manchild with a talent for self destruction, black humour and poor judgement. I am 100% my own harshest critic and toughest judge. I sometimes struggle to break old habits and give myself a break and I sometimes struggle to see why I should. Generally I’m a positive, cheery bloke but every once in a while I fall flat on my face and struggle to pull myself up again. I used to read other survivors’ stories to give myself a boot up the backside thinking my life wasn’t that bad, my abuse was nowhere near as grim. It took me a long time to realise the impetus was not on the abuse itself, more on how pervasive the effects of the abuse would be to my psyche, my self image, my behaviours, my self worth. Hopefully this outlet will let me get everything out of my brain and down into something tangible, something readable, but then again my brain is a marvellously wonderful, confusing and confounding place so who knows what this will become……..