Bitter? Angered? Downtrodden? A victim? None of the above actually, and I don't think stronger is the right word either if I'm honest. In the last post I explained how "sorry" is such a difficult word for me to accept, how empathy is much much more important than sympathy. I believe that without going through [...]
Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word…
I've never wanted apologies. Not from my abuser, not from my parents, not from anyone because I genuinely believe no one needs to say sorry for anything that's passed. I always believed that my abuser had been on the receiving end of a similar experience and just didn't have the strength to not continue the [...]
I Am What I Am And What I Am Is…..
A mess sure, but just an average mess. That's probably the best way to describe me. Average. I'm by no means anything special, I'm not particulary clever, not particularly funny nor am I particularly popular but what I am is completely and honestly me. I spent years being less than, believing that others were better [...]
The Curse of The Waltons
You know how social media is everything, like, EVERYTHING and people often remark on the phenomena of Facebook Fakery, i.e how someone's online life looks like it's farts would smell of Chanel No5 but the reality is nothing short of a car crash? Well I'm not so sure that it started with Facebook. I blame the [...]
The Truth Is Out There….Somewhere…
"Tell us about you..." 4 little words, innocent, simple and quite banal. 4 little words that could terrify me to the point of nausea. I've already said my home life was actually pretty good but that's with hindsight. When I was growing I would do everything I could to distance myself from my home, do [...]
Once upon a time in a land far, far away….
I've almost stressed myself out of my tiny mind thinking of how to start this particular post, do I go straight in with black humour? Do I introduce myself and my history in a way akin to a factual documentary (yawn) or do I start with some powerful, emotively deep statement? How about just writing? [...]
Happy Ever After………Right??
So we’ve all read them and all been appalled by them; the amazingly candid and beautifully written memoirs of kids who have suffered the most horrendous abuse at the hands of others, usually written like this: Kid grows up in an abusive home, kid struggles to get away from their abusers, kid has a troubled [...]